Really

Oh my, it's a mistake! :(
The serious matter for me, all in my life that I'm wondering and curious about it,
waiting to know the 'why' we boke up matter and reason for more or less, 8 months.
And i finally know why.
Gorsh :(
You said you don't want me anymore or maybe forever. Or even 'hate' me..
And that's include the 'why' we broke up reason.
Entire 8 months, thinking all along going high and low, and I know why now.
Once I heard what it is...
I'm like, No way.. :(
I did Not, or I can say I never bastard you the 2nd time.
I, didn't..
Really..
Is it something like, I sort of ^secretly sms another guy^ while I'm with you?
no,no,no.
I thought of it hard, so hard.
Is it the K. guy? Or the H. guy? I can't remember which or who..
But I swear I did not, went to any of them , or say it as I 2 time you...
wo mei you..
If I really text them..
They just, JUST my friends.
see, until now I also never go with any them..
I don't Like. Them too...
All I rmb, that night you said those on msges..
All I can say,'I really can't find any perfect fishes so far, or never find one..'
'Every stuff that I did or go, I'll think of you'
I'll like, 'how i wish if you'll' ,every moment :( Heart seriously very pain.
Honestly, if I had bfs after we seperate, I'll end up leaving them..
I leave them. I'm sorry for them..
But I always broke with them cos of you..
Not your fault of course..
I will suddenly think of you / simply find that they are just not like you.
you're so, way.... different from them. ):
I know now you have F. and I can't say anything.
I just thought that it's a mistake. We broke up cos of misunderstanding )':
No matter what, I owe you thousands of sorries..
)':